hear me out...
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
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its been a long time since i've posted again . things are getting better for the both of us .
@ 12:48 PM
you're all that i want
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Friday, July 22, 2005
I dont want you....to give it all up
And leave your own life collecting dust
And I dont want you to feel sorry for me..
You never gave us a chance to be.
And I don't want you....to be by my side
And tell me that everything's allright
I just wanted you......to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you.
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
I did enough to show you that
I was willing to give and sacrifice
And i was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough
But when I get close.....you turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you....to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Is it me? Is it you?
Nothing that I can do
To make you...change your mind
Is it me? Is it you? Nothing that I can do
is it a.....waste of time?
Is it me? Is it you? Nothing that I can do
To make you...change your mind..
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away? (What all do have to say?)
So why are you running away? (To make you admit your afraid)
Why are you running away?
@ 12:57 PM
you're all that i want
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Wednesday, July 13, 2005
?.?
this blog is meant to be abused .. not me .
@ 9:50 PM
you're all that i want
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Monday, July 11, 2005
i was wondering . .
why are blogs used to post feelings for .. when they are supposed to express what or how the person feel in reallife .. is it because you cannot see person , or you cannot feel the person .. or is it because the person next to you cannot feel your inner thoughts at all .. so you have to tell it to them in blogs ..
haha .. it probably sucks to some of you reading this .. "what the fuck this alex talking again .. " "chee bye , always in the middle of the night post such weird posts to confuse people " .. yup thats the way life is , its meant to confuse you stupid buggers =x HAHA .. got shot right in the head just for thinking that i'm mad . =p
this .. is a post going out to all those reading . i've nt posted for quite sometime .. would like to thank those for supporting my blog the previous time . this time i would like it to be private =D . just for friends OR lovers close to me .. lovers nt close to me whom i describe , YOU ARE JUST FOR ONE NIGHT STAND . LOL JOKING =D ..
i'm such an asshole , that you might even wanna just slit my throat and see me bleed to death . too bad you wun get the chance because before you even do it , i might hav slit my own throat . killing myself , hearing you say " haiya ! why dun let me kill you . " yup ok -faint- .
@ 11:53 PM
you're all that i want
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dated 11 july 11.38 pm
she said i changed drastically . did she even see the sad facade that i hide from everyone ?
i've tried almost every aspect of a fail relationship .
first it was a silent break up . no damn fucking reason why . haha kind of foolish to give it up so easily .
2nd was a horribly failed relationship .. thou we were'nt really in a relationship . she treated me like i was a thorn in her flesh , details i wun say . i could safely say shes the one i love most in my life , up till this very moment . her safety and well being is my priority , this is what my priority in life is all about . its her . people say that you are foolish to do such things for her and not letting her know about it . fuck them , they don't know a shit about my life . i can have everything done for me in an instant , but not this . i've been waiting patiently for seriously quite a long time . i believed that i blew it up real bad over some money matters . money no longer mean an issue to me , haha but you said , no money you would'nt even find anything . true enough but its something that i would'nt care a damn shit about compared to you . i'm sorry bibi .
3rdly , some girl name shalon ? oh my , i felt bad taking you for her . if you ever peeked into this draft , i hope that telling you this now still is not too late . i took you for granted . ah ok due to some screwed up personality after the blows i had made me crazy .
yup these are the things that affected my attitude if you even care to see or read . i don't care how bad you are , how poor you are , how worthless you get , or how good you are , how great you are , how damn shit drop dead gorgeous you get . . looks don't matter anymore . how i wish you are reading this .. but it does'nt matter anymore because these are all in silence . after typing for 5 mins i threw everything right out in this draft in a short summary . i think i'm going to fall asleep . good nite to you . you know who you are ok ? =D. nites sweetie .
@ 11:37 PM
you're all that i want
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Saturday, July 09, 2005
ah yes .. look @ the parking lot number .. haha randomly chosen .
been thru quite a number of silly projects this week , even let my mum say how come your project so fast finish 1 .. Too bad lor , i kiang ma ! i be leader , give my members a even workload so i dun hav to do everything myself . =D .
went out on friday nite , after my grandmother's bdae . Brought nat to the tea house ! ROFL i had some ahmad tea , vanilla flavour . Oh god damn it i missed that taste .. ever since i got my license i never had the time to go there .haha made her treat me the pot of tea =x so happy free tea !! =X .. ya den after that we went to pick maurice and aaron up heading towards east coast . lastly after seeing them drinking 2 bottles of tiger , we headed down to cineleisure , well i would'nt call it a lousy day cos i had my pool =x HAHAHA .. ok off to sleep
@ 3:09 PM
you're all that i want
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